When I first heard of Kundalini Yoga, it was via a friend in London. Her curiosity led her to a free Meet Up group in South London. She told me how they sat in a circle chanting while the teacher walked around them waving her hands. It sounded way out there. “Are you sure you were doing yoga?” – I asked. I still had a lot to learn back then.
Fast forward to 2017 and Kundalini Yoga is one of the fastest growing styles of yoga around. And during my yoga teacher training this year, I found Samantha Sirgun. Together with Sat Ravi, Sirgun brings us Graceful Women and in 2018 an opportunity to learn from Australia’s most senior Kundalini Yoga teachers.
Now, I’m still a little indecisive about Kundalini Yoga. The practice is amazing. It’s raw, fierce, primal, feminine, transformative, challenging, confronting. It’s many things that you might think you’d be lining up for – and some people do! The transformative power of Kundalini Yoga is unparalleled. There’s nothing else I’ve found that has gripped me, shaken me up and set me free in the way that Kundalini Yoga does. So, why am I so hesitant?
I feel maternal, fiercely feminine and a bit like I’m channelling my inner Kali.
To be completely honest, it’s fear. When I practice Kundalini Yoga, I meet myself face to face and I break free of the psychological, emotional and physical ‘mess’. After a week of practice, I’m deeply connected to something within me that I can’t explain. And I’m scared of those things that I cannot explain. When I practice Kundalini Yoga I feel maternal, fiercely feminine and a bit like I’m channelling my inner Kali. It’s empowering.
Still, why am I fearful of this obviously beautiful and powerful practice? Well, it’s hard to re-write your stories. It’s hard to rewire after 100’s or 1000’s of years of society shaping our beliefs. I find it hard to surrender to what I can’t explain or what doesn’t fit in the story.
Luckily for me, I’m feeling the fear and doing it anyway. And I’m going to a Kundalini Yoga retreat this weekend with Sirgun at Celia Roberts’ retreat space in Upper Brookfield. I look forward to sharing some more thoughts on Kundalini Yoga with you soon.
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